Monday, October 18, 2010

Here We Are Again

Yesterday was one of those days. It started out with church and a sweet birthday dinner at one of our church member's homes. What should have been a happy time turned out to be quite stressful. I woke up that morning and was already spotting. For any pregnant woman who has ever spotted, you really wonder why they chose such a deceiving word for what the experience is actually like. As the day matured, the bleeding began to get heavier until I became weak and dizzy. Sadly, we had to excuse ourselves from my birthday meal early in order to go to the ER via doctor's orders.

Bryan's mom came and picked up Abby while I was tested in every way possible to try to determine if we were miscarrying or not. The end test results were inconclusive, so I was sent home and told to rest. According to the ER doctor, the bleeding seems to indicate a likely miscarriage but the acceptable HCG level did not confirm it. I am at home waiting now to hear what my obgyn wants to do.

I am at a place of waiting that I prayed I would never be at again. No one welcomes suffering, but I am reminded here again how sweet the presence of Jesus really is when His children hurt. We are experiencing a peace that passes all understanding as we wait on the LORD to accomplish His will in our lives and in the life of this child. I trust Him. This time, I know confidently that He can heal me and save our child from a miscarriage. This time, I also know that if we do miscarry, He will carry me through the grief and use this pain for His glory. Either way, in life or death, God is good. We will rest in Jesus.

Please join us in prayer that God will use this child as an example of His miraculous power to do the impossible that even modern medicine cannot do. We are praying for a healthy baby and for the bleeding to stop. If touching Jesus' robe caused a woman's blood flow to stop in the Gospels, we know that God is able to do the same so that we do not miscarry. Thank you for praying with us and for waiting with us to see God work.


Katie A. said...

Thank you for being so open. I am praying for you guys, but know that no matter how easy or hard it is God's plan is perfect. Praying that God will lay His healing hand on you and your baby and use both of you to HIS glory!

Anna said...

Thanks Katie. Prayers are appreciated!

Our latest update: I am scheduled to repeat a HCG level Wednesday. So far, the HCG levels are good. Just trying to take it easy until then.

Brooke Silguero said...

Wow Anna! Thanks for sharing such a sad and scary time. Just know that you are in our prayers and that God will use your experience
for His glory in some way.
The LORD bless you
and keep you;
the LORD make his face shine upon you
and be gracious to you;
the LORD turn his face toward you
and give you peace."
Numbers 6:24-26

Heather said...

Oh Anna! Thank you for sharing so openly. I'm praying that everything works out according to God's plan. I am also praying that, whatever happens, you continue to feel his peace.

Grandma Pat said...

My prayers are with you, Bryan, and Abby!!!!

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