I just got off the phone with Dr. Sams, and the news wasn't what we wanted to hear. We now have one child here with us and two in heaven. We are grieving and comforted that one day we will get to meet this child along with the other one we never met. For those of you who have waited and prayed with us, thank you so much for your encouragement and support. God is good... all of the time. He has been our rest to this point in the journey and will continue to prove faithful to us.
I read a quote last night in a book that I thought was timely. It said, "Boiling water makes carrots soft, eggs hard, and coffee beans useful. Which are you?" Suffering comes for us all. It is part of life in this broken world. I pray that when it comes to you that you will choose to be useful to the Master. His plan is higher than ours. Even our unanswered prayers and the things we don't understand or even hate that happen to us somehow work toward "good" in the end (Romans 8:28) when we love the LORD. So for now, I will rest in Him as He heals my broken heart and gives me the strength to serve Him another day.
"Whom have I in heaven but you? And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you.
My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. For behold, those who are far from you shall perish; you put an end to everyone who is unfaithful to you. But for me it is good to be near God; I have made the Lord God my refuge, that I may tell of all your works."